balance is tricky

Yesterday one of my dear ones gave me a well-deserved lecture. It was all about how I had too many balls in the air and didn't say no nearly often enough and that was why I run around with chipped fingernail polish and a frantic look in my eyes.  She was right, of course, but how do I really decide? I mean, it should be easy right? What's most important? I just don't want to give up some of the things that are not so important because, despite recent evidence to the contrary, they make me happy.

I started this post several days ago and since then I have made significant progress. Last night I went to bed and left an unfinished project on my sewing machine. That is a big step for me. Sure, I have had projects that took longer than a day before but I have never, ever gone to bed without reaching whatever point I had been planning to reach. This may have something to do with my sleep issues. But I did it and nothing really bad happened. I might be a little late with my sister's gift but I don't think she cares all that much. Only I do. Next year I have big plans to avoid all this over-the edge angst at the end of the year. Wait and see, I'll be amazing. In the meantime maybe I can find peace with my own lowered expectations.