Yesterday one of my dear ones gave me a well-deserved lecture. It was all about how I had too many balls in the air and didn't say no nearly often enough and that was why I run around with chipped fingernail polish and a frantic look in my eyes. She was right, of course, but how do I really decide? I mean, it should be easy right? What's most important? I just don't want to give up some of the things that are not so important because, despite recent evidence to the contrary, they make me happy.
unfinished project on my sewing machine. That is a big step for me. Sure, I have had projects that took longer than a day before but I have never, ever gone to bed without reaching whatever point I had been planning to reach. This may have something to do with my sleep issues. But I did it and nothing really bad happened. I might be a little late with my sister's gift but I don't think she cares all that much. Only I do. Next year I have big plans to avoid all this over-the edge angst at the end of the year. Wait and see, I'll be amazing. In the meantime maybe I can find peace with my own lowered expectations.
4 years ago