lately i've noticed

Lately, I lay in bed in bed at night and think of things I want to blog about so it's probably time to start writing again. I also think about that stupid, dumb house I still own in Kansas, but then I try to think about other things because that is one problem I can't fix.

 I love my new house. Love, love, love it. I love the floor plan, I love the windows, I love the bird that lives in the crepe-myrtle outside my bedroom window that never (not ever) stops singing. I love the park out the back gate the Johnny is constantly disappearing to without permission. I love the mysterious woods and all intrigue that could be happening in there. I love (and agonize over) picking paint colors. I love that the neighborhood is so very quiet at night and I love how bright the stars are from the front yard. I love that feeling of nesting when you are putting together a new home. I love that I don't have to think about moving again anytime soon. I miss my friends. I miss having history and shared memories with people. I miss my children's friends and the tight bonds they have formed with children they have known as long as they can remember. I miss feeling confident about my life and circle and my direction. We are finding our way. We are making friends. We are painting walls and hanging pictures. Someday the to-do list will no longer be multiple pages and life will again slip by without us noticing, a blur of swim lessons, appointments, soccer games and homework. Now I notice all the days, for the happy and the sad, the easy and the hard, and the noticing is not a bad thing.