Monday, March 5, 2012

hurry up and wait



I have this picture saved on my phone. I look at it multiple times a day. Anytime my tummy gets that icky, 'this is all too much' feeling, I look at it. If all goes as planned (knocking on wood), in a little over three weeks my boys and I will move into this house just outside of Memphis and my husband will too. We will all live together in the same house (let alone the same city, state, etc.) It's not the perfect plan I had hoped for. We still own a house in Kansas, so that will be two houses, which is really more than I need but that can't possibly last forever (can it?!) and all this time in pieces of a family has started to feel like forever. So. We are moving on, without the closure I was hoping for, but with an eye towards pushing forwards anyway, with just a few strings attached. I have never actually been to this house. My dearest picked it out for me. He chose it for its giant front lawn, perfect for little boys who always want to run, for the big windows his light-craving wife requires, for all the space on the front porch for rocking chairs to watch the lightning bugs. Things are decided and it's time to go, except it's not. The mortgage is all arranged and the movers scheduled, the schools have been alerted and the paperwork is signed. My heart is aching as we start saying our goodbyes. And we are counting the days and planning a lovely spring.

5 comments:

Andrea said...

That new house of yours looks dreamy!!! I'm so happy you will all be reunited. In spite of our "two house dilemma" over the past year and a half, I wouldn't trade it for a second if it meant I had to be separated from my hubby. All that waiting and losing our life savings, it was worth it.

I think...

Anyways. Yay for new beginnings!!!!!! I'm so excited for you! :)

Reluctant Nomad said...

VERY PURRRRRTY!

Adri said...

It looks amazing, Angie! Just like what a Southern Estate should look like. Good luck with the move!

Linn said...

Gorgeous! So happy you two will be together again!

Dena said...

Prayers are always answered, just not always the way we plan. So happy and escited for this next chapter in your journey.

Love,
Mom