the road not taken- thankful

I am an actor. Maybe you don't this about me because I have been on hiatus lately. I'm working on that because I really miss it. I am actually pretty good. When Ty was in law school we spent a summer outside of L.A. for his internship. I was thrilled to be admitted into the relatively prestigious Playhouse West, a pretty famous acting school  (Jim Carrey trained there). I loved it. If you are serious about acting, L.A. is one of a few places that you can really make a living at it. At the end of the summer I met with Robert Carnegie. I told him if we got a job offer out of the internship then we would likely be back. He didn't think so. He told me that I was very talented but that L.A. was not a nice place to live or to eventually raise a family. He told me that he thought that, in the end, I would put those things first. He was right. When the offer came, I just couldn't picture us living there. I wanted more for myself and my future children. Instead we went to Wisconsin. I have to admit that since we made that choice my opportunities to act have been few and far between. An independent movie here, a commercial there and I admit I feel the lack but, I have loved the life we have built for our family so far in the places we have lived. Loved being home with them, loved living in places with blue skies and Christmas snow, savoring the short years before they are too big. I don't have any illusions about having made it, I would never have been a movie star, but I could have been a successful, working actor had we stayed there but we would have spent a lot more time on the freeway and a lot less time in the backyard. This upcoming year I will start auditioning again and doing little projects here and there and doing them really well. In the meantime I will be watching over the idyllic childhood I always dreamed about for my children with stars in my eyes.