why yes, this is backdated, thanks for asking

So. Every November for several years I have been a really good blogger, for at least that month. Every November I do a daily thankful post, until this November when it was all of the sudden the sixth before I even noticed. Shoot. Then I remembered that Blogger will let you date a post whenever you want to and I decided that it wasn't too late, I could still salvage this year's thankful posts. So plan on several today and then one a day for the rest of the month because this is a thing I can do, a thing I want to do. Today I am thankful for second chances and adjustable date stamps.

lately i've noticed

Lately, I lay in bed in bed at night and think of things I want to blog about so it's probably time to start writing again. I also think about that stupid, dumb house I still own in Kansas, but then I try to think about other things because that is one problem I can't fix.

 I love my new house. Love, love, love it. I love the floor plan, I love the windows, I love the bird that lives in the crepe-myrtle outside my bedroom window that never (not ever) stops singing. I love the park out the back gate the Johnny is constantly disappearing to without permission. I love the mysterious woods and all intrigue that could be happening in there. I love (and agonize over) picking paint colors. I love that the neighborhood is so very quiet at night and I love how bright the stars are from the front yard. I love that feeling of nesting when you are putting together a new home. I love that I don't have to think about moving again anytime soon. I miss my friends. I miss having history and shared memories with people. I miss my children's friends and the tight bonds they have formed with children they have known as long as they can remember. I miss feeling confident about my life and circle and my direction. We are finding our way. We are making friends. We are painting walls and hanging pictures. Someday the to-do list will no longer be multiple pages and life will again slip by without us noticing, a blur of swim lessons, appointments, soccer games and homework. Now I notice all the days, for the happy and the sad, the easy and the hard, and the noticing is not a bad thing.

faqs

1. Is your house sold? When are you moving? Etc, etc, etc.?
No, no it's not. Hopefully things will pick up now that the holidays are over. We're not yet sure what we will do if they don't and I sooooo don't want to talk about it anymore. It just makes me feel sad and stressed.

2. When are you going to start blogging again.? (ok, not that many asked this question but it's kind of the purpose of the post)
Why, today, of course. January has me feeling all fresh-start-y and bloggy.

3. Does this mean you'll be writing every day?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA- No, I will not be any better at that then I have been in the past. Well, maybe a little better.


4. Since it's January, will you be doing your ever popular 'doing it better' series this year?
Yup, starting tomorrow-ish.

nothing to say

There are a lot of reasons why I will never be one of those famous, fancy bloggers. This is one of them. When my heart hurts, when I am not so copey, I don't want to write. I just don't have anything of value to say. You know, "if you can't say something nice" and all that. I am embarrassed by how hard this is for me. We are so very blessed and if this is the worst thing I have had to deal with in a long time then I am a lucky duck. But.  I hate this. I am frustrated and heartbroken and lonely and there is nothing I can do to make it better. And I don't want to write about that every day. That would be pathetic and sort of icky and nobody wants to read that. I am fine, someday (hopefully soon) this will all be ok and then I will maybe be excited and want to write about things. But not now. Eventually, I will be back. Promise.

unintended guilt trip

(I am posting this generic pic of my phone because I don't know how to do that image capture thing where I can show you the screen of my phone. It would have been better, but, c'est  la vie.)


So, a few days I got a text asking if I had closed my etsy shop. Nope is the answer. The texter responded that she had noticed it was empty whilst checking my blog ( you know, the one I haven't posted to for at least umpteen weeks). Gah. She innocently highlights the two things at which I am sucking the most lately in two, succinct texts. Sigh.
And so, once again, a resolution to do better and to update those who care on the happenings around here.
The following list  details all things of importance that have happened since our last communique.

1. Tommy lost a tooth and the fairy brought him a golden dollar. Now, he is rich.
2. I went to KC with some of my favorites and sang loudly until I lost my voice at a piano bar.
3. It rained the entire weekend that my FIL was here so instead of painting, he rebuilt my bay window. He is coming to do more free work this weekend. He is my favorite.
4. Johnny had a preschool program at which he sang loudly, did all the actions and commented occasionally. Loved it.
5. We considered and prepared for and ultimately decided against a life-changing sort of decision.
6. Two of my nephews had birthdays. I called my beloved SIL only weeks ago to verify the exact dates. Then I missed them anyway.
7. Johnny learned all of his letters. Seriously, in like, a week. Thank you, Leapfrog movies.
8. That same week, he got a cavity.
9. I did not work on the apron order from a new friend that has been sitting in my sewing room for two months, but I did get fabric for new drapes in the kitchen.
10.Tommy finished Kindergarten. He did so nonchalantly and with little fanfare because he is Tommy and that's how he rolls.

There were other things but ten is a nice round number so I am stopping now. Perhaps I'll go work on that order or something. Probably, something, let's be honest.

coming soon...

Back online Monday with a regular schedule of posting. Have missed you all desperately. Kisses.

doesn't add up

Wedding dress must be finished by Friday+two class parties (double room mom)+homemade cards+ final week of marathon training (last 20 tomorrow)+sick people+very, very naughty three-year-olds (he did this to the perfectly clean basement in 12 minutes)+(literally) 12 loads of clean laundry to be put away=

no blogging.

Sorry. Back soon. Promise.

i know we did it last year...

...but we liked it a lot, so we're doing it again. Going to see that mouse in Florida, I mean. So no posting for a week or so because I will be busy hobnobbing with princesses. Have a great week.

writer's block

Can't think of anything to write. Maybe tomorrow. Going to run in the fall breezes and blowing leaves instead. At sunset. Lovely.

two different fevers

I have had a rotten summer cold all weekend and it severely cramped my style. The weeds in the flower beds are completely out of control, the new roses didn't get planted, the basement is still only half-way clean ( the other half is currently residing the guest room) and I can't even think about the bathrooms without a little nausea. Sigh. But I did a lot of reading. Fluffy, brainless escape-y reading. In my jammies. That part was nice. If I could do that with out the sinus headache and sore throat it'd be like heaven. But tonight I feel a little better and that means that tomorrow I get to run. And that's even better. And the roses will be planted, weeds defeated and so on. Not super excited about the bathrooms, but there you are. It's worth it if I get to run.