Friday, May 7, 2010

of mice and men

I had a plan. It wasn't complicated or tricky but it was a plan, a schedule of how I was going to work my life. I've reached a what was supposed to be a crossroads and despite my very best efforts things are not in order. I can't responsibly proceed with the plan and I'm so sad. I tried so hard to make everything perfect, to tick off all the boxes and yet nothing is right. There has been no great derailing, just a severe lack of progress on so many fronts. It shouldn't matter whether it's now or later or even never. But. It does and I'm so incredibly disappointed. And for that I feel guilty, because I am so greatly blessed. And so very sad.

6 comments:

Amber said...

Hope things are okay. Congrats on getting in the marathon.

Emz said...

you ARE my missing foruth sister. I could copy and paste this right into my blog.

Hugs from AZ!!

Julie said...

Just enjoy the ride.

3StinkyBoysAndMe said...

I know what you mean. Ugh! Hang in there! xo

Linn said...

I'm so sorry Angie. If you ever need to talk, I am completely here. I mean that. Thinking of you...

erin said...

We have a lot of catching up to do. I hope you are well.