Tuesday, February 3, 2009

self-medicating


When I was in high school I had a long term love affair with blueberry cake donuts from Tasty's in Kaysville. They were absolutely delightful. Then I became a grown-up and my metabolism did too. I had to give them up, except for special occasions. Donuts are few and far between in my life. Tonight I am eating Krispy Kremes (yes, plural). I haven't had one of these in a long time. You might have noticed that my last few posts have been, well, a little on the harpy side. I weaned off my anti-depressant again. And again I am completely coming apart. Apparently having children has screwed up my brain chemistry for permanent. Loud sigh. I know it's not that big of a deal. I tell my friends all the time. It turns out, I'm a total hypocrite. It's O.K. for everyone but me. I shouldn't need it. But I do. Ugh. So until my happy pills kick in it's donuts for me. Oh yeah, don't tell anyone I take drugs, it's totally embarrassing.

11 comments:

Erin said...

Eat your Krispy Kremes and enjoy them! You have nothing to be ashamed of and it is ok for you to be feeling "undone." It doesn't feel ok, but it is. Love ya.

Erin said...

Oh yeah, I have double blueberry dreams. Nothing like them here! Dang!

Linn said...

Oh man, you should not have reminded me about those. I am hungry. And the thought of a double-blueberry donut makes me want to cry. Or a Krispy Kreme. If I come help with your closets, can I have one? All we have in Dunkin' Donuts here and I have only tried them once. Yuck.

And yet, all of that rambling was not the point of my comment. You are fabulous! And taking anti-depressants does NOT make you any less of a wonderful person! Ignore what you tell yourself about it and believe the rest of us. We are so right about this one!

I'm on my way, save a donut for me.

Julie said...

Yummy!!!!

jolyn said...

mmm... sounds so yummy right now

Amber said...

Let me recommend Lamars on Rock. They not only have fab blueberry cake donuts but strawberry cake donuts and perfect bavarian creams.

Adri said...

Oh, how I miss double blueberry Tasty's donuts! My kids have learned the loveliness of them, as well, and we MUST make a stop at 'the donut store' for 'pink donuts' whenever we are in K-town.

I'm sorry you are feeling bunk. Know you are loved and that a little happy pill is WAY better than a grouchy mama.

P.S. When are you going to be in Utah next? I'll come too, and we can do lunch at Tasty's, okay? I miss you!

Erin said...

You know, I was thinking of taking the kids to Krispy Kreme in the morning. Great minds think alike.

Andrea said...

Girls, I hear a Tasty's reunion a-callin....I'll be there in March!!!

And I agree with Ad-nothing wrong with happy pills. WAAAAY better than grouchy mom.

Cassi Ostler said...

Oh yeah?! Well, I have been being SUPER good lately in prep for the Miami beaches. Five day a week work outs, 1800 cals a day ect ect. And last night I went to Chuck-a-rama...yes...you read that right...and ate things like deep fried shrimp, scones with mounds of honey butter, salad with more ranch then salad, and shuch...and I deserved all of it. Im absoutly sure you do too!

jolyn said...

Okay, how am I supposed to diet between your Krispy Kreme posts and Julie's Oreo posts. I'm going to have to stop looking at your blogs!!!:)